whines
jzebel
sulks
rants
whispers
from the boy who loves the girl
with all his heart
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
sorry boy u had ur chance.
its either shun yan.
or lover.
hahahahaha.
okok. im a bit sianed today. i dunno vhy. grumbles~
ok. hope my mp3 gets fixed tmrw.
and ah. i think mr gp tution teacher deserves a good teachers day celebration.
not because he said i hav an aura. which made my head swell like mayb 10 times and i havta boast bout it like AGAIN on my blog. hahahahaha.
yaya. the point is. i think he is really good at teaching. coz he makes me think. n ya. considering how i love brainless activities. i must say he is really good at teaching.
PLUS. i wld die to get his job in the future. jetting ard in budget airplanes to almost everywhere in the world sounds v much tempting.
ok. that contradicts how i want to b a housewife.
ah. heck.
rahhhh
10:09 PM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
i.love.international.trade.
i think im going to ask my ahmah(the real one) ta teach me howta cook.
must get ready for my housewife days.
HAHAHAHAH.
no la. i juz find it amazing ta b able ta cook.
considering how my home-econs lessons were such a flop like everytime. can u imagine cupcakes without milk. ya. thats wad i do.
o but the scene was quite comical though.
its like me n my partner finished SO MUCH FASTER then everyone else. so we sat at our tables n watched everyone else scurry ard with their doughy mixtures. whilst we waited for our cupcakes to bake in the oven.
then. i saw sumone pouring milk into their mixture. and i tot to myself. eh looks unfamiliar.
so i turned and asked my dearest partner who was fa dai-ing with me. "eh, u added the milk rite"
then she turned n gav me the most nonchalent face eva and said " i tot u add one"
tadah..... cupcakes w/o milk.
yay. so exciting. hahahahha.
OKOK. BAC TO PRESENT DAYS OF MUGGING-NESS N BOREDOM.
studying in the lib is. ok~~~ AS IN I DUNNO. IT KINDA WORKS BUT IT KINDA DOESNT WORK.
o wells.
o ya, PLUS it doesnt help that i eat like a pig ta stay awake n study.
puffy-fish. hahahahha. qi-tan, u r not witty enough to cum up with witty lines. hahahahhahaha.
rahhhh
8:14 PM
Monday, August 28, 2006
hello, good morning. how do you do.
解脱 是肯承认这是个错
我不应该还不放手
你有自由走
我有自由好好过
解脱 是懂擦乾泪看以後
找个新方向往前走
这世界辽阔
我总会实现一个梦
rahhhh
6:05 PM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
God of Small Things.
She buried her head in her arms, feeling foolish for having been so sure.
rahhhh
12:38 AM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
lets gang up n kill barney.
我越在意
越难衡量
就越放不下
越不去想
就越是他
:)
GP TUTION was good.
bout barbies and their inability ta stand. haz.
of course, THE MARQUIS DE SADE.
dried skin with naughty stories. like. ppl were REALLY deprived ah.
i dun like flirts.
ok. i bet no one does.
so fei hua.
choc truffles.... wheee.
and the jing tian ni yao jia gei wo mv on chen yan yan's blog is highly entertaining. haz.
*melts into a puddled beh.
u knwo how u remember certain smells. n sumtimes juz sumtimes hav the ability ta smell em again. like outta no where. as in. mayb its juz an imaginary thing. but u suddenly get the whiff of that smell not frm anyone else or sth. but juz coz u remember it. well, im startin ta forget sum of the smells i treasured for so darn long. like the indo mountain breeze with tinges of bbq corn. roxy's baby fur. danny's head. hugg-ed perfumed smells. sea smells. soap frm my childhood days. stinky after db kallang smells. the airy sorta star gazing nites smells.
and i dunno if its good or bad.
its kinda like the past is slipping away so silently and part of me kinda wants ta try and hold on to it. but part of me says. let it be.
heyuan's blog says. TO SCORE THY A DATE WITH THEE.
me shalt be confidante.
me shalt not be afraiddd of rejections.
me shalt be proude of thy veird eccentric habits. (like eating too much)
me shalt learn to cook n not kill thee person forced ta eat it. as a show of thy undying love to thee.
me shalt not b thy jerk in thee life.
me shalt not b mean so as to hide thy flaws of low self-esteem.
me shalt be reel but thy must lie when neededente.
hoho.
SORRY I WAS BORED.
rahhhh
7:16 PM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
im hungry.
the most embarassing thing happened ta me yest.
ok actually. its the 2nd most embarassing thing after the "beryl soh ur wallet..." thingy.
argh.
and so i saw xiao xiao online.
feeling extremely excited n bored. i decided t strike a conversation with her.
and of course ppl who know how i treat xiao xiao know how i coo at her.
and so i clicked on supposedly her name n typed in caps as i normally do
"XIAO XIAO~~~ DO U MISS ME~~~"
and den proceeded ta wait for her reply as i surfed other sites.
THEN I REALISED. WHY THE NAME WEIRD WEIRD ONE.
GUESS WAD. I CLICKED THE WRONG PERSON'S MSN NIC...
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
i clicked the person above xiao xiao............
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
and the worse part is i aint v close with that person. who was. a guy.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
kill me please.
I REALLY DO THE STUPIDEST THINGS EVA TA RUIN MY OWN IMAGE CAN.
SOB.
and
hello
mr tan henyuan. stop lazing ard n go n study if ya readin my blog. which means u r slackin. haz.
and i always tot i hav a dozen n one pics with u. but i juz checked my pics la and actually i dun hav alot of pics with u ah. but anyways, i still love ya phone ta bits.
:)
okok. i know i owe u 20 buckaroos.
sulks.
and see wad happens when u r too tall. haz. U GET CUT OUTTA THE PICTURE.
okok. TA RACHIE LIAU. i like wilbur pan's size. haz so i guess. okok. he is the most lovable creature in the world. HAPPY. and yes i wont touch ur hand for a week. :P
i still like my kim dongwannnie in his woodywoodpecker pics. HOHO.
which reminds me of how i insisted i was going to get married to him and irritated jaryl tan. haz.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
rahhhh
11:25 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
inky tranquilizer.
o wells.
IM FEELING DARN GUILTY FOR NOT TAKING THE CONS TEST DURIN THE ECONS TEST SLOT.
rah.
hai.
okok.
anyways,
its amazing how i get so hyped n cheered up over the smallest eva thing possible.
haz.
argh.
but. -ve + =ve neutralizes like EVERYTHING.
and we havta re-run.
like argh.
so being vengeful, irritated, and day-dreamy on the bus. i decided to come up with a list of y the intellectual cg rep in our class. missed my timing FOR 3 WHOLE ROUNDS.
1) beh soh here is NOT SHUN YAN ENOUGH FOR HIM. thus he was ogling at other girls in their ultra short FPTs and completely forgot bout the poor puffycheek-ed girl running her 2.4.
2) beh soh is too short to be seen.
3) beh soh looks like almost EVERYONE ELSE.
4) beh soh has effectively got on his nerves as being the "xiao monster yi zhi"
5) he tot i cldnt run v fast so he spent the time watching the chio bus.
ta-dah.
in summary.
puffycheek-edshortgrumpynhypergirls dun get noticed by intellectuals.
yay.
okok.
the week is packed with homework n stuff.
so juz. jia you ba da jia.
CAN WE GO SAKAE OR SEOUL GARDEN NEXT WEEK.
ok. i shld stop dreaming.
BUT RACHIE SAY WE MUST CELEBRATE.
hoho.
and i guess. i really do hav the worst backboneless ambition eva.
haz.
DON TELL U~~~
:P
okok. u can cum ask me. its too embarassing ta b posted. hahahaha.
AND GOH MIAO-EY/ RACHIE LIAU.
DUN TAG ANYTHING IF U TWO HAV ANY INKLING BOUT WAD I WAS RANTING BOUT. THE AMBITION THING.
thank u for ur cooperation.
:)
ooo yayaya! i have this "wad im gonna call my kid" list.
HAHAHAHA.
duey. phoebe.cloe.and johnathan. COOL RITE. HOHO.
and they all started telling me how fat im gonna become if i had four kids.
haz.
i miss tanningggggggg.
mayb i will become this fat.
hahahaha.
AND. TO SERPHY . BERPHY HERE SAYS. I. DO. NOT. HAV. A. BUTTON. NOSE. RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
That it really began in the days when the Love Laws were made. The laws that lay down who should be loved, and how. And how much.
rahhhh
8:13 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
My darling, who knew
i vish my bday wasnt on a holiday BETWEEN my a lvl lit exams.
GRUMBLES.
i sooooo wanted ta spend the day at the zoo. dun ask me why. i juz feel like. u know. then ppl cna really sing the happy bday u r born in a zoo song.
da xiang da xiang......... ni de bi zhi zhe me na me chang~~~~~
yayness.
BUT MY LIT EXAMS. RAHHHHHHHHH
but the date is nice though.
22.11.88
HINTS HINTS.
ha..........
When someone said count your blessings now
For they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew
rahhhh
9:04 PM
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
miduhyo.
i miss indonesia.
ok. actually, i miss the food dere.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
puffy puffy puffyyyyyyy.
puffed up.
dies.
haiyaya.
DONWANNIE IS MINE.
rach can hav andy.
no one wants him anyway.
hahahahaha
i realise i add a "ie" to anything that catches my eye.
hahahahaha. so if u are loved i called u sth sth ie.
if i dun call u that.
oops.
too bad.
:P
kill me lo~~~~~~
rahhhh
11:06 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
lets be nerds. no not sweets. study nerds.
doing homework burns 122 calories.
thats an hour for a 68 kg person.
but. wow. i din think it wld burn any at all.
but not all nerds r thin wad.
mayb they gorge on food when they r studying.
puffy cheeks r getting puffier.
must curb eclair and milk tea intake
>> CHANTS TO SELF.
BUT I DUN LIKE DIETS. AS IN ITS SUCH A WASTE OF YOUTH. YOU KNOW WHEN U R PREGNANT AND AFTER THAT U WILL BALLOON LIKE NOBODIES BUSINESS. SO MUST EAT NOW WAD RITE RITE RITE. SINCE THERES STILL PE. ERM LIKE ONE MORE WEEK. BUT THATS NOT THE POINT.
ok. im juz trying to give excuses bout my horrendous eating habits n insatiable appetite.
just kill me.
or in ser's world , "come follow me!"
proceeds to dig a hole n bury self.
我明白
我要的愛
會把我寵壞
像一個小孩
只懂在你懷裡壞
你要的愛
不只是依賴
要像個大男孩
風吹又日曬
生活自由自在
rahhhh
10:20 PM
Friday, August 11, 2006
turn off the lights.
And I say follow me follow me follow me down down down down
till' you see all my dreams
Not everything in this magical world is quite what it seems
nadoobadeedadumdee.
:)
blindness.
hypocritcal asses.
burn in hell.
no. god loves u.
bigger eyes.
thinner thin.
stick arms.
proportionate thighs.
sharper chin.
less is more.
high on sugar
eyecandies r sugar.
laugh.scream.spy.
i teach.
yay.
给从前的爱
握紧的 还是都放了手
love less-ed.
dream last for so long even aftre u're gone.
cant u juz infer.
go figure.
or ask me.
i write wad i want.
how i want.
:)
rahhhh
8:36 PM
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
BAH.
some ppl are juz so endearing for no particular reason.
sakae. was. good.
:)
im pretty happy now. ok when i shldnt. coz i din do any work.
but still~~~
miao-ey bu yao yang wo.
ahmah ye bu yao yang wo.
rahnesssss.
终于作了这个决定
别人这么说我不理
只要你有一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一只温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃
I IRRITATED THEM WITH THIS FEW LINES.
over.
n.
over.
AGAIN.
o ya and.
我朴实的金东沅阿!
rahhhh
11:39 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
In My Life
~
The Beatles
There are places I'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all
But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more
rahhhh
10:00 PM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
berserk.
detachment isnt pratical as a form of self protection.
it doesnt last.
morn was sucky.
as in.
unreasonable.
i dunno.
it just scars and hurts more then instills any form of fear.
emo crying was just horrid.
i wonder how can sch make me feel so unwnated n useless even though i aint no trouble student.
its like.
GRADES ARE EVERYTHING.
IT DEFINES WHO U ARE.
which is so not true.
ok. mayb true to a certain extent.
in any case.
GP tution normally makes me feel betta.
its more of thinking, voicing n not having to worry if the teacher thinks u r silly.
coz. who cares.
but then reality sets in when u realise its back to the nightmare tomorrow.
its scary when u start wishing ur thoughts were in coherent cheemology ang moh terms that can b used in gp essays.
definitely a sign of i-want-to-be-a mugger syndrome.
and hey. im mysterious.
shakes ma asssssss.....
HOHO.
i would run n off all the plugs in the bloody blender goldfishy museum.
and mayb whilst doing so go berserk n scream as i do so
"whats the bloody problem of the curators, call the animal activists now! we r going to riot till we get compensation to breed more GOLDFISHES! All hail goldfishes!"
thats the weird rebellios streak.
no wait. thats the mild version.
the real rebellious streak would be running around laughing beserk whilst turning all the benders on.
and then shake my ass as i go take a budget airline home.
argh.
its only a goldfish.
but still~~~~
u knoww....
our desire to protect those lil itty bitty creatures.
this is wad happens when i think too much.
rahhhh
11:21 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
un-ness.
unlovable.
un-interesting.
unpretty.
unhappy.
un-improving.
unwell.
ungrateful.
unentertained.
unmotivated.
uncherished.
rahhhh
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